I'm a colleger

hola !

it's been so long I'm not signed in for this site .

wasaaaap blogsky !

miss you of course .

I'm a colleger now :p

how was it feels ?

emm , it's too early to said , but occasionally I'm happy enough here .

stay in Malang , lost my scholarship Bakrie there .

I just feeling perfect with my parents here :)

I'm pretty sure that God will gimme the best here .

well , I'm study law now , international class , so my English uses here .

what's going on with my class ?

nothing impressed , i just being happy got some new nice friends .

we gonna in this class for this 4 years , so I hope we can together and live happily ever after LOL

blogs , I hope I'm not making some bad voice and wrong choice .

love ya :*

cinghu .

cinghu .
this words really familiar , we can't live alone , cinghu always around us .
what's really matter with cinghu ?
why we can feel so deep in hurts when they betrayed us ?

the answer is , because we always believe on our cinghu .
me , I'm the most believe with my cinghu .
but now , how if you find out 'em lyin' on you even betrayed you ?
its like send you to hell , really .
to found my self at this problem really makes me wanna run .
run far far away .

i found my self just betrayed by my friends in this friendship day , thanks God .
i found my self play behind me .
so SICKS .

God , don't you ever meet up me with this kinda of friends anymore :"(((

FAR . GAP . US

yap .
like i said before , like a fool I'm lost .
yaaaa eottoke ?
i can't survive . really .
I'm in this side , feeling so exhausted .
I'm not the puppet , I can't just keeping silent look two of them doing that kinda sucks on me .
I'm a normal .
i can be hurts .
yes , now I'm in hurts you know .
its better for me to run away from you both .
there's nothing for me to stay .
I can't .
so just this and those .
now and later .
my life still must go on .
without you both are best .
maybe its better to forget , if i can .
so just pray for it .
good bye . ex-friends .

I'm nothing , but I'm ME .

I'm not beautiful , really .
I'm not cute .
I don't have that kinda of Spain guitar body shape .
I'm not a well-known girl .
I'm far from perfect , so far faaaar awaaaaaaay .

Its not boys ideal type right ? :)

But something I want a lot is , I'll be the one that my man looked after .
Not a boys .

I'm here , just have a lotta love from my parents .
My family .
They're still the best for me .

so if you said I'm nothing , its right .
but the things you should now , I AM ME .

SICKS .

well . holaaaaa my blog .
its been a while I'm not touch you .
you're unreachable now since I'm move out from home because some renovation there .
many things happen you know .
like a fool , I'm lost .
you know what's friend are ?
they make me so SAD .
once , I believe 'em much , once , she broke just like that .
I'm sure you still remember about the sky I'm wrote here last view months ago .
he's gone now .
he's in a relationship now .
with my friends .
friends who always by my side .
friends who always I tried to be her best .
friends where I share with .
friends where I hang out with .
CLOSE FRIENDS .
is it must i replay ?
CLOSE FRIENDS .

do you know what i wish ?
i really wish that day , when I laugh with her , I told her 'bout my heart , its never happen .
its killing me softly .
with all this pain her drawn on me .
could she realize how sicks it ?
how her really close friends betrayed her for an 'boyfriend' .

COULD SHE FEEL IT ?

no . she never .
i hope so , i hope in her life's , she never ever feel it .
cause it just too much pain .
too much .

whoaa !

do you know how down me right now ?
me need something , something that can fixed it all .
but there's , nothing .
nothing could fixed it up .
cause it just happened , and its already broke .
however we tried hard to make it back , like before , there still something strange .
there still something looks , unusual .

now , me really try hard .
try hard to forget , forgive .
but , it just too much .
am I too meant ?
why she could doing this to me ?

i really hope , someday , God proved to me .
that my life's , will be awesome with this kinda of experience .
me grow up perfectly :)

I believe , God must have something to show :)

for all the times in my life , all I have , all I had , thanks God .
me love you deeply <3

I'm going 18 . OLDER !!

well , its April 28th now .

tomorrow , i am 18 .
oh sure , how come i am this old ?
there's many things change in my 17 .
there's also hard life that keep me go on .
whether its wrong or right .
but now , i realized much .
what friends are really they , what enemies really they , haters , lovers , hypocrite , and so on .
its not just about how you really try to treat everyone honestly .
its about what they want to do about us .
even we are born and live as a honest people ever , but it doesn't need for them .
all they know its what they judge .
how hard you try realized them , i think the result is based on them not based on you successfully .
because the owner of their mind is them , so they have big rights for what they have to do with it .
for sure , i really unsatisfied with many people thinks .
did they really feel the were God ?
so how could they judge many people they don't even know by themselves ?
okay , i should call people like this with PERFECT tittle !
however , my life getting better by this .
if its only we can judge every time , its mean keep your smiles and dress well every time .
after struggling for many bad-hard-condition of life , I've become stronger now .
its really nothing to say about haters who always keep talking about your business .

from that's one year , from trembling till stable .
from "stupid" till "success" .
from childish till grown .
every little things in you life , that's really something God gives you to know .
to CHANGE if its wrong .
to REPAIR if its doesn't match .
to be a better person .
really , thx God , now i can stand with this brave .
thanks for give me many lesson in my 17 :)
for many "bestfriend" .
but sometimes you just know , what kind of best friend suite you a lot .
what kind of best friends keep you alive and positive .
thanks for my 12 ipa 2 .
even though I'm new , sometimes you know me aloooot !
thanks for all the lesson you guys gave me :)
thanks for being my last class .
thanks :)

God , even though i doesn't have boyfriend in my 18 (i really hope that i have for sure) just show me the way its positive or not .
i need a guy that suite me alot even if not now .
i know you always gave me your best :)

God , if its possible , would you give me more suitable condition ?
i'm going to college after this .
i really want to find up my own money , so i couldn't waste my parents money .

God , would you give me more patient ?
so I can be cool and calm person :)
I'll try my best , really !

God , give me your happiness ever after :)
maybe I'm not that person who can keeps smiley every time , but if its happiness with me , I can feel more comfort and really thanksfull to you :)

THANKS GOD I'M 18 NOW :)

it's getting BITTER :(

WHOAAAA FINALLY I CAN REACH YOU MY BLOG !
its getting so long semenjak wifi di rumah error .
many things happen when i was away !
but this time , for sure , im feel lost of my faith .
lost of my faith to my sky :(

i am AFRAID !

how could she (someone else) send him wall in his facebook .
DULUAN .
untungnya no reply .
ga tau lagi sih tapiiii .

ga tau ini GILAAAAAAAA namanya .
jadi gak brani apa apa haha
hahaha

seorang saya bisa jadi sangat takut KEHILANGAN .

kehilangan senyumannya .
candanya .
semuanya , SEMUANYAAAAAA

please , its getting dark here !
help me out from this !
its feel like i'm started to lost my faith on you .
its seems like i'm hopeless .
:(((((

find , lets find the answer !

oh ya besok saya USEK . semoga nilai bagus .
nyesek juga sih karna sekelas sama dia x(
bismillah :)




i love you yesterday , today , tomorrow SKY :)