cinghu .

cinghu .
this words really familiar , we can't live alone , cinghu always around us .
what's really matter with cinghu ?
why we can feel so deep in hurts when they betrayed us ?

the answer is , because we always believe on our cinghu .
me , I'm the most believe with my cinghu .
but now , how if you find out 'em lyin' on you even betrayed you ?
its like send you to hell , really .
to found my self at this problem really makes me wanna run .
run far far away .

i found my self just betrayed by my friends in this friendship day , thanks God .
i found my self play behind me .
so SICKS .

God , don't you ever meet up me with this kinda of friends anymore :"(((

FAR . GAP . US

yap .
like i said before , like a fool I'm lost .
yaaaa eottoke ?
i can't survive . really .
I'm in this side , feeling so exhausted .
I'm not the puppet , I can't just keeping silent look two of them doing that kinda sucks on me .
I'm a normal .
i can be hurts .
yes , now I'm in hurts you know .
its better for me to run away from you both .
there's nothing for me to stay .
I can't .
so just this and those .
now and later .
my life still must go on .
without you both are best .
maybe its better to forget , if i can .
so just pray for it .
good bye . ex-friends .

I'm nothing , but I'm ME .

I'm not beautiful , really .
I'm not cute .
I don't have that kinda of Spain guitar body shape .
I'm not a well-known girl .
I'm far from perfect , so far faaaar awaaaaaaay .

Its not boys ideal type right ? :)

But something I want a lot is , I'll be the one that my man looked after .
Not a boys .

I'm here , just have a lotta love from my parents .
My family .
They're still the best for me .

so if you said I'm nothing , its right .
but the things you should now , I AM ME .

SICKS .

well . holaaaaa my blog .
its been a while I'm not touch you .
you're unreachable now since I'm move out from home because some renovation there .
many things happen you know .
like a fool , I'm lost .
you know what's friend are ?
they make me so SAD .
once , I believe 'em much , once , she broke just like that .
I'm sure you still remember about the sky I'm wrote here last view months ago .
he's gone now .
he's in a relationship now .
with my friends .
friends who always by my side .
friends who always I tried to be her best .
friends where I share with .
friends where I hang out with .
CLOSE FRIENDS .
is it must i replay ?
CLOSE FRIENDS .

do you know what i wish ?
i really wish that day , when I laugh with her , I told her 'bout my heart , its never happen .
its killing me softly .
with all this pain her drawn on me .
could she realize how sicks it ?
how her really close friends betrayed her for an 'boyfriend' .

COULD SHE FEEL IT ?

no . she never .
i hope so , i hope in her life's , she never ever feel it .
cause it just too much pain .
too much .

whoaa !

do you know how down me right now ?
me need something , something that can fixed it all .
but there's , nothing .
nothing could fixed it up .
cause it just happened , and its already broke .
however we tried hard to make it back , like before , there still something strange .
there still something looks , unusual .

now , me really try hard .
try hard to forget , forgive .
but , it just too much .
am I too meant ?
why she could doing this to me ?

i really hope , someday , God proved to me .
that my life's , will be awesome with this kinda of experience .
me grow up perfectly :)

I believe , God must have something to show :)

for all the times in my life , all I have , all I had , thanks God .
me love you deeply <3